HOLD ON...:)

Observing my life from the outside.One may, only be able to spot the pains,the disappointments,the struggle life is and may conclude,life is a real "pain and difficult" for him..But if they are willing to wait for a moment,before concluding this and carry on with their observation for a little bit longer.They sure will, spot me smiling,laughing,cracking jokes all the time.It is not that the observer was wrong with their observations,at first

Life for me cannot be justified by just these term "pain and difficult" For it is a culmination of the so many disappointments,loneliness and for the various other tormenting emotions and struggles i have been enduring these years.but in all this,HOPE can only be called a savior
       
Can't for certain,cite any reason,what has prompted me to,count on a thing, as uncertain as 'HOPE' ,but i reckon,it has been an instinct,which told me that i was not a LOSER,even if others,did their best to make me feel that way.

Quitting,on this personal experience of mine,presented a far deeper meaning,than it seems,Like to anyone, who might have lost almost everything and the thought that nothing ever,can get alright and this usually leads to depression creeping in and i too couldn't escape from its grasps,quitting sure seemed the easier of the options..

Because,depression is a phase,where your mind is not open to reasons to feel good about,but looks for reasons that you are not.Obviously things were adding up as,nothing was going right, for me..And from the fast paced life it got to a life of a person who couldn't even walk his way out,of his home,after that fateful accident

Over the years,even though the definition of a "bad" situation has changed,but the core problem continues to linger
But from a completely miserable,unimportant person,whom people felt better to be ignored.Surely have come some distance.And HOPE has driven me to aspire,everything will be alright one day,and it has been my ally,since long,because the thing i was missing was the very basic of things that everyone takes for granted, FREEDOM

It wasn't about me missing on a important factor in any ones life,but it was more to do with the fact that,as a result of it,i had to face a raw deal from people and things.But to the present day i have relied on,the only tool available with me,HOPE

But HOPE for me, has gone hand in hand with PATIENCE, 4 years is a long time to be holding on to just that,with no significant returns
But it has been a thing,that has helped me every time,i was ignored or was made to feel,as an,"unimportant being" .No body deserves to be treated differently or be ignored,just because they had some misfortune.But every time that has happened,i have always told myself "i am better than that,its just not my time,and will get better soon"and have been hoping,it soon will

HOPE,in general too can sometimes, feel like a myth,but having it,sure adds more value to life,Well for me it has presented with a reason that i look forward to the day ahead,with a smile.Will,any day bargain for a life with hope,than one without it...
    "HOPE is not one of the better things in life,its certainly the best"

                                                                    - THE HEART SPEAKER                            

GEMS are RARE

GEMS,sure are rare and consequently, very precious too,and even more rare are the ones,that are personified, than the ones in the crystalline form..a fact that i was made well aware of,while spending my lone time in,depression.

Interestingly the time when one is at their lowest and are all alone,that is when,they realize the cold truth,that all this while they were with,mere imitations,who had done, a pretty good job, pretending

the lows in a person's life are a time where one gets an opportunity to check each stone very closely and determine the good ones,and that is a reality good,knowing without,because there would be some,whom you would have wanted them to be gems,but all they would turn out to be,are some insignificant stones and that may well be a blow,like it was for me...

Could note a more worrying aspect about the lows,that the will in people to be doing something, for others,if they don't see any gain for themselves,is a gesture,which has almost gone extinct
     But the lows are also a time,when you are made aware of a more important fact,That only your parents be there by you at a time like that,Infact,they are even more precious than gems,a fact that many don't realize or like to underplay their significance

But, nobody expects a gem in every person ,but they sure expect every person to be a good human,which i feel is not being, unreasonable.And anyone can be.You don't need much qualification to be eligible as one.  Anyone who according to me posses the quality of empathy,and reacts accordingly,qualifies to be a "good person"

It is now,that i realize,i wasn't trying to find a gem of a person,during those darker times.It sure were,these breed of people,that i would have wished,be around.And,now that i understand,the world is running twice its pace and time is what people lack,.like the most common alibi,i have heard from various people,these years,for not keeping in touch ,"it is not as if i don't care about you,but can't find time",guess we are at a juncture where things come before,everything..and all else,are a lesser priority

but it would have been different if everyone had applied empathy in their lives,and would have seen what they could do, to help the other person's cause.The world needs people of that caliber to help it,move on