Wednesday, November 10, 2010

also read - being unfair to DESTINY...:)

 the word DESTINY gives you a nice warm feeling ...but it doesn't take long for that picture to change...
      at times, i feel ..we are too unfair to it..because destiny...like i understand ,is the events that will necessarily happen with a person{good or bad}...but many of us don't remember about it,unless its remarkably a great achievement  ...but the moment things,start going against our way,even a little bit....we soon change it to FATE..and start complaining about it and if its really bad,curses are never far away, like that is the only reason responsible for our miseries
     but dont think many have the right to complain,only at their bad times

having an personal experience of spending, more than a year in depression,guess can say..what had made me to,feel the same way?  retrospecting , i realize..apart from the obvious reasons of disappointments ,having had the accident .and then the consequent life,which felt like HELL ...when life came to a virtual standstill when it was moving at 60 km/hr and being in the house  whole day and not knowing if ever i could see the world,in the same color..when these things added with the fact that, the very people,whom i really was counting on,decided to leave..that time i felt relieved to, curse my fate

but now its different ,in fact  after my days of depression...and even after having spent the past 4 and 1/2 years isolated inside my home,and still having difficulty walking  ..but if seeing my plight,if now anyone blames/curses my fate..i react with a smile because, can't tell them, what they are seeing is fun for me and the life am leading is a pleasure too ,and am enjoying it , NO spending 24 hrs in a day, 7 days a week for the past 4 and 1/2 years is not something a overactive person will like and i hate every small bit of it..

but deep down in my heart,i know for a fact that...i never complained when things were going right for me..be it for the cool life or for the people around, who seemed nice at that point in time or for the close shaves i might have had,before..
        then what right, do i have to curse destiny,if just for once, it took a bad turn...no matter as a result of it,i couldn't see/walk well or use my arm and as a result of it,i don't have, many people around

the thing i had to understand was that, things could have been a lot worse,as now i can see,walk,use my arm but only that, i couldn't use them well and just to be grateful, for that fact,because i don't know what i would have done without them

but i believe, it is LIFE .... DESTINY is just the trail, on which..one travels, afterall...
             “It is our CHOICES ,that determines our DESTINY  "


                                                                  - DEEPAK DEVARAJAN

10 comments:

  1. From Moksha:
    Haha,
    you tried to make commenting impossible but I found the anon option.
    Or more accurately I whined at you and you helped me.. Soooo let's move on and talk about something much more important-your blog.
    And its one serious problem...
    It doesn't mention me once!
    No reference to my 1/2 metre spider pube moustache! Not a word on my retro 1/2 afro. No mention of the jaunty angle at which I wear my Abe Lincoln Hat!
    Dammit did I win Miss Cornwall 1973 for NOTHING?

    Get scriblling deeps and don't forget the important stuff this time!

    I'll be watching


    M

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  2. hey moksha,i just was making commenting not easy...and not impossible.fearing comments by people like you..atleast then people like you would refrain...hahaha...lol

    and sorry my mistake,i know i should have mentioned your name right at the very top,making a special spot..just for you...ya you can picture that......but in your sweet dream...hahaha...lol...:)

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  3. (fm MOksha)
    Ha - well dream I shall.
    And Deeps do keep writing, some days you might not see any comments but you know people will read it, think and maybe come back days later.

    Some voluble types you will not be able to get rid of :)

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  4. Abe kya likha hain yeh sab...high fundu hinglish mein.....thoda translate bhe kar deta mere liyen....:P

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  5. yes why not....the translated version...will b out soon....hahaha....lol...:)

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  6. Choices The will ,the right of choice and ability to make decisions are the basics of mankind to be looked at as simply as 2+2=4
    Relgions ultamely give us these choices. You are with us or against us. the mantra of nations
    Spirituallity is a whole other story.
    Recently I have been extremely unhappy at my job - I love being a nurse with all my heart but at a job I chose when a door to a new experience opened I stepped thru not knowing what to expect. It was ajob working with a doctor I respected in his office . There I wasnot able to forfill my favorite part of nursing the daily care of making a difference with each persons life.
    My personal mantra has been E.Browning " if i can stop one heart from aching I would not have lived in vain. So for the past 3 years I have struggled to get my pts medication Insurance rights and helped families thru fearful procedures ,teaching and learning everyday. Recently my company has grown and I was asked by my docotr to organize him , not his patients.....as he is an adult and I then wouldn't be able to share my time with the patients....also never paid a cent of overtime. I began 2 months ago to look for new employment.
    there is a deprssion finacially in USA and state funded health care hasnot improve only pushed things to an almost violent frenzy ....so no new jobs for me. Today with a mutualish decsion I was fired ..I am 53 years old and support my family daughter 24 and husband 63. we lived paycheck to paychecklike most americans. So yes I am living my choice but at the cost of home and health. Hoping I can gear up for what the next days hold .
    It is like you say life is full of choices I choose to keep doing the profession I love and will make it work thankful during our holiday season that I have lived my life without looking back on regrets maria b

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  7. hey maria,thats a very noble deed u were and want to pursue...hey all the very best that you find that appropriate job...LIFE sure can be too trying at times....GOD BLESS and TAKE CARE..:)

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  8. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and pieces of your life with me. I have a quote that I wanted to share with you.....
    Life is not the way it's supposed to be.......
    It is the way it is..........
    The way we cope with it, is what makes the difference.
    Peace, Blessings, Love & Light
    Christy

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  9. hey christy,you dont need to thank me, infact thank you for the read...
    hey thats a great quote....LIFE sure is the way it is....and is as complex as it can get..better to leave LIFE at that...and keep discovering things about life,as it unfolds..:)

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