HOLD ON...:)

Observing my life from the outside.One may, only be able to spot the pains,the disappointments,the struggle life is and may conclude,life is a real "pain and difficult" for him..But if they are willing to wait for a moment,before concluding this and carry on with their observation for a little bit longer.They sure will, spot me smiling,laughing,cracking jokes all the time.It is not that the observer was wrong with their observations,at first

Life for me cannot be justified by just these term "pain and difficult" For it is a culmination of the so many disappointments,loneliness and for the various other tormenting emotions and struggles i have been enduring these years.but in all this,HOPE can only be called a savior
       
Can't for certain,cite any reason,what has prompted me to,count on a thing, as uncertain as 'HOPE' ,but i reckon,it has been an instinct,which told me that i was not a LOSER,even if others,did their best to make me feel that way.

Quitting,on this personal experience of mine,presented a far deeper meaning,than it seems,Like to anyone, who might have lost almost everything and the thought that nothing ever,can get alright and this usually leads to depression creeping in and i too couldn't escape from its grasps,quitting sure seemed the easier of the options..

Because,depression is a phase,where your mind is not open to reasons to feel good about,but looks for reasons that you are not.Obviously things were adding up as,nothing was going right, for me..And from the fast paced life it got to a life of a person who couldn't even walk his way out,of his home,after that fateful accident

Over the years,even though the definition of a "bad" situation has changed,but the core problem continues to linger
But from a completely miserable,unimportant person,whom people felt better to be ignored.Surely have come some distance.And HOPE has driven me to aspire,everything will be alright one day,and it has been my ally,since long,because the thing i was missing was the very basic of things that everyone takes for granted, FREEDOM

It wasn't about me missing on a important factor in any ones life,but it was more to do with the fact that,as a result of it,i had to face a raw deal from people and things.But to the present day i have relied on,the only tool available with me,HOPE

But HOPE for me, has gone hand in hand with PATIENCE, 4 years is a long time to be holding on to just that,with no significant returns
But it has been a thing,that has helped me every time,i was ignored or was made to feel,as an,"unimportant being" .No body deserves to be treated differently or be ignored,just because they had some misfortune.But every time that has happened,i have always told myself "i am better than that,its just not my time,and will get better soon"and have been hoping,it soon will

HOPE,in general too can sometimes, feel like a myth,but having it,sure adds more value to life,Well for me it has presented with a reason that i look forward to the day ahead,with a smile.Will,any day bargain for a life with hope,than one without it...
    "HOPE is not one of the better things in life,its certainly the best"

                                                                    - THE HEART SPEAKER