The day "7th june 2006", got etched into my whole being,rather unwillingly.It's the day I like to remember as the day of my re-birth.Some say it was just a miracle,that i was saved,after that fateful accident of mine.Well,I like to remember the day,as the day,which brought transformation,one which took my life in utter darkness,but also helping me,to elevate myself as a person ..in more ways than one
These years,have not been easy,that i will enjoy, remembering.Going from the shocked & miserable state i was in,to the subsequent state of depression for the next 2 years,but the 4th year saw me having an unusual resolve,to see the end of this,which lead me, to the path of self- resurrection,that to me,has been the turning points in my life.
These years have been very uneventful,but it has presented me with an opportunity to grow.So even if the person "deepak" degraded,the human in "deepak",just was getting upgraded.There was a drastic change,in my whole perspective, of how i saw things and situations.Had to deal with some very difficult situations,by myself,all the while, trying to give my best,.But I realize,these experiences were helping me,to grow
Overcoming the challenges,which was presented to me,as a 23 year old boy,whose active life,came to a standstill,and then being abandoned by most of his peers,and adding to the hardships,then not being able to walk his way outside his house and that its a pain,not having basic freedom,as without it,nothing ever can make sense.But I have spent the past 5 years of this life,still unrelenting and also with a smile,most of the time
Remember coming to consciousness after spending,those 2 months in COMA.Not even having the energy to open the eye lids,or move my limbs.Surely have made advancements,many folds especially considering how bad I was,I see this new lease of life,as a gift,The gift of LIFE
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THE ABOVE CONTENT WAS WRITTEN BEFORE 7th & this,now..
Being a person,who believes in looking for reasons to celebrate life,and sharing them with people.For sharing them, brings the sole happiness,i may get to have, now.But i never felt like sharing this information with anyone,on that day,nor felt happy,that I have managed to endure these years,of a very tough life,relatively well.Subsequently there was no update on "facebook",which I used to every year ,or felt like completing the blog,i was working on
It sure was a big milestone for me,but for a mental breakdown.When it dawned on me that 5 years have gone by,but am still nowhere,and continuing being at the mercy of others,for the smallest of things.Its a pain,living on others terms,more-so to a person,who never liked to be dependent,for any thing
But having spent 5 uncomfortable years,with no respite in sight.The thought that, how many more,being dependent?.Which arguably,has been the toughest ordeal,I have had to put up with,now.It's people, and not the difficult,circumstances that has given me a tougher deal,now..I reckon the overwhelming belief that "the fall,that I had" being very bad,and the possibility that I could never come out of it,must have made people treat me as expendable
These 5 years have been a struggle,every single day,right from the time,of having had woken-up from bed.The task of seeing through the 24 hours in the day,for the past 5 years, was not something I would even wish thinking about,but knowing that I would have to be spending many more,of them.Brought brakes to the lively self,of mine.During this while,I lost interest in how I handled things,didn't have the will to act,but just to react,to the way others would have expected me to
As I personally never want anyone to be worried for me,more-so my parents.But it gets difficult,having to deal with these thoughts alone,how much ever one tries to maintain his composure.But,with time have learnt to separate the emotional breakdown,from the mental breakdown,knowing an emotional breakdown would have transformed my whole self to a sad,negative soul.Which would have been a total contrast from my normal self.
But to be giving out a sense to others that everything was alright with me,I had to create a false belief in my mind,that everything was alright with me,before responding to anyone.But in reality, I was all messed up and disturbed,inside.And from the past I have known the implications of an emotional breakdown,on the people around, who care for me,especially on my parents.So,this seemed a better solution
The only comfort,came knowing the fact that, I have,had to deal with similar breakdowns,in the not so distant past.And known the key in handling these kind of situations is,not to dwell on them.Knowing that the disturbed state,will fade off,with time
But in the meantime,could get my hands on a motorized threadmill,which really has proved an asset,to get all these negative feelings into, me walking,without having to look for anyone for help,to walk,and now I walk at
1km/hr for 20 min{thrice a day}-learning to walk all over again &
6 km/hr for 15min, then decrease to 5.6 km/hr for 15 min{lowering the speed ,because the kneel,on which I have issues with,gets too tired to go on}
These years,have not been easy,that i will enjoy, remembering.Going from the shocked & miserable state i was in,to the subsequent state of depression for the next 2 years,but the 4th year saw me having an unusual resolve,to see the end of this,which lead me, to the path of self- resurrection,that to me,has been the turning points in my life.
These years have been very uneventful,but it has presented me with an opportunity to grow.So even if the person "deepak" degraded,the human in "deepak",just was getting upgraded.There was a drastic change,in my whole perspective, of how i saw things and situations.Had to deal with some very difficult situations,by myself,all the while, trying to give my best,.But I realize,these experiences were helping me,to grow
Overcoming the challenges,which was presented to me,as a 23 year old boy,whose active life,came to a standstill,and then being abandoned by most of his peers,and adding to the hardships,then not being able to walk his way outside his house and that its a pain,not having basic freedom,as without it,nothing ever can make sense.But I have spent the past 5 years of this life,still unrelenting and also with a smile,most of the time
Remember coming to consciousness after spending,those 2 months in COMA.Not even having the energy to open the eye lids,or move my limbs.Surely have made advancements,many folds especially considering how bad I was,I see this new lease of life,as a gift,The gift of LIFE
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THE ABOVE CONTENT WAS WRITTEN BEFORE 7th & this,now..
Being a person,who believes in looking for reasons to celebrate life,and sharing them with people.For sharing them, brings the sole happiness,i may get to have, now.But i never felt like sharing this information with anyone,on that day,nor felt happy,that I have managed to endure these years,of a very tough life,relatively well.Subsequently there was no update on "facebook",which I used to every year ,or felt like completing the blog,i was working on
It sure was a big milestone for me,but for a mental breakdown.When it dawned on me that 5 years have gone by,but am still nowhere,and continuing being at the mercy of others,for the smallest of things.Its a pain,living on others terms,more-so to a person,who never liked to be dependent,for any thing
But having spent 5 uncomfortable years,with no respite in sight.The thought that, how many more,being dependent?.Which arguably,has been the toughest ordeal,I have had to put up with,now.It's people, and not the difficult,circumstances that has given me a tougher deal,now..I reckon the overwhelming belief that "the fall,that I had" being very bad,and the possibility that I could never come out of it,must have made people treat me as expendable
These 5 years have been a struggle,every single day,right from the time,of having had woken-up from bed.The task of seeing through the 24 hours in the day,for the past 5 years, was not something I would even wish thinking about,but knowing that I would have to be spending many more,of them.Brought brakes to the lively self,of mine.During this while,I lost interest in how I handled things,didn't have the will to act,but just to react,to the way others would have expected me to
As I personally never want anyone to be worried for me,more-so my parents.But it gets difficult,having to deal with these thoughts alone,how much ever one tries to maintain his composure.But,with time have learnt to separate the emotional breakdown,from the mental breakdown,knowing an emotional breakdown would have transformed my whole self to a sad,negative soul.Which would have been a total contrast from my normal self.
But to be giving out a sense to others that everything was alright with me,I had to create a false belief in my mind,that everything was alright with me,before responding to anyone.But in reality, I was all messed up and disturbed,inside.And from the past I have known the implications of an emotional breakdown,on the people around, who care for me,especially on my parents.So,this seemed a better solution
The only comfort,came knowing the fact that, I have,had to deal with similar breakdowns,in the not so distant past.And known the key in handling these kind of situations is,not to dwell on them.Knowing that the disturbed state,will fade off,with time
But in the meantime,could get my hands on a motorized threadmill,which really has proved an asset,to get all these negative feelings into, me walking,without having to look for anyone for help,to walk,and now I walk at
1km/hr for 20 min{thrice a day}-learning to walk all over again &
6 km/hr for 15min, then decrease to 5.6 km/hr for 15 min{lowering the speed ,because the kneel,on which I have issues with,gets too tired to go on}
And the past few weeks,have been working on my walk,so much,that I have lost 7 kilograms,which is a testimony to my efforts.But the frustration and anger, with the way I have been treated,makes me push more,for I want this ordeal to end as soon as possible,to make my, LIFE,a real PLEASURE....
- LOVE LIFE
- LOVE LIFE
