The incomplete. MIRACLE

In the modern world,one may not often directly believe in Miracles,but may only reckon its existence,by the circumstantial aspect of things.Well being a survivor of a near fatal accident,after which the doctors having seen a very less possibility of me making through with life,and making through with memory even grimmer

Well,i am still here,and if i say that "the memory is so great, that i often remind others of the very old instances,which even they might have forgotten,.Then one would at-least consider, if not be compelled to believe that there sure is something unexplainable,and miracle would often be a term we  refer it as

But unlike the popular belief that being a person blessed with a miracle,I would have been a happy soul,ever since ,but being happy about it just remains a technical feeling that i should be having,but in reality it has often felt more a curse than a blessing,YET.And one of the first reason's why that is the case, is i guess because,i just have a life{in the real sense} but no life{in the figurative sense}

Don't want to be sounding ungrateful for the gift,i was bestowed with.But can life be fun without freedom?.And won't you miss anything even more,if you knew what having it,feels like but at present you have none.But to realize the gravity of the thing, i was missing, to be unhappy.For that, i hope everyone must be experiencing  the experience of going wherever and doing whatever you feel like,which we generally know by the name FREEDOM ,because if one tries to have a peek inside them,one will realize that it is the basic requirement one needs to be happy

But it was not the only thing i was missing out on,that has made me feel,this way ,It was because as a result of  it, had to be dependent on others for anything and everything.And the problem with that is, not many have the free will to do things for others,if they don't see any gain for themselves,and if they didn't, they are more likely to take that person for a ride"more often than not",for they have nothing to lose from it And don't think many saw any good from me,ever.The thing is...
   "Not many care much ,how you were with them before,
           all that matters is the present and how is the prospects,looking for you "
                                                         
Never really,felt the occurrence of being granted a life as a bless,YET.And retaining my memory,with the so many things missing in my life ,felt more a curse than a blessing. memory has been a thing that has been tormenting me,directly or indirectly,directly when every time i directly saw things i miss now and indirectly when it did the same, whenever i went into my thoughts

But if anyone has noticed,i have given prominence to the word 'YET'.Because when i say "this granted life" is not a blessing,yet.i just mean it is just the case now and not necessarily,forever.The confidence in the statement is due to the fact that,i just don't believe in miracles alone,doing the trick .The blend of hope,faith,belief and effort,gives me that confidence in proclaiming it

Because,even if "it" hasn't yet felt like a blessing these 4 and 1/2 years,It really didn't mean it will never be.Because HOPING it will turn out to be a blessing, always was and still  is something worth pursuing for,For i see freedom on the other side and there is nothing sweeter..HOPE,am granted the remaining part of  this MIRACLE and make this blessing,complete..:)

                                                             - the HEART SPEAKER